Some people that I thought I was closer with than others, spent heaps of time with and helped each other out with various musical projects have failed to acknowledge our friendship by not including me or inviting to their weddings. After all the time we’d spent together, all the effort I had put in for them and I realise that all the time I thought I was a friend, turns out I was only a colleague.
It has been several months since my last post. I’m estimating about 5 months, which is a lot more recent than my last confession. So.. 5 months. In 5 months time I don’t think much has happened. The biggest event would be the trip to the Philippines with my mum’s side of the family. I went there so super excited & came home pissed off coz after all this time thinking I was the brat of the family, it turns out that I’m a fucking angel compared to those eff-heads. Most of them anyway except for my sister & cousin Jo who is a living saint. I could not believe how rudely they treated not just my mother, but my aunts & uncles who are supposed to he on holiday but had to wait on their every beck & call. Ungrateful shitheads.
I’ve also recently celebrated a birthday, by having a karaoke night with my work friends and childhood friends/family - it was a bit hard to juggle the 2, not sure if i’d ever do it again, it was like combining church & state and it’s just not right.
Even more recently (ie tonight) we were meant to attend a friend’s going away party, who’s leaving for a 2 year stint in London. She didn’t mention anything about the venue being an actual exclusive club, or anything about attire and appropriate girl to guy ratios so by the time we rocked up, the line was a kilometre long and they were only letting girls in and our group was an even mix. To make matters even worse, we saw our friends just as they were heading in and they were mostly girls and they chose not to wait for us and went straight in, without a warning about the line and the massive wait before we got there. I wasn’t too upset because I didn’t want to go in the first place but one of the guys was really looking forward to it and was pretty cut up about it. After half an hour of the shivering cold in the development mistake that is called Docklands, amongst the scantily clad girls in stripper heels, we decided to get the eff out of there and had a relaxed dinner and shisha instead. I vowed then and there that I would never resort to that kind of shit ever again. Eff waiting in queues for clubs, I’m going to own the clubs and they’ll let me in no matter what time I get there, who I’m with and what I’m wearing. It worked out for the best though coz we had a fun night and didn’t have to shout at each other over the pumping music or have to be crammed in a room with sweaty & inebriated people we don’t know.
I’ve noticed that this post has been very negative so far so I’ll talk about one good thing that has made me happy recently. We’ve been training these 3 siblings to play for the church youth band and the youngest one who’s 9 has learnt the drums from my sister. His older sister sings and the older brother plays guitar. I’ve always been a sucker for the underdog and the eldest brother is someone who doesn’t really stand out compared to his cute little brother or diva sister, so while having a jam I encouraged him to sing and he was sooo good! He sang “Just The Way You Are” by Bruno Mars and omg he incited some sort of bieber fever amongst the females in my household. He would be a total goldmine on youtube but he doesn’t even think he can sing or perform that well and is too shy to make videos. But I’m working on it and hopefully soon he’ll be confident enough to share his talent with the world :-) it’s shit like this that makes me happy ;-)
Anyway, hopefully I’ll keep in touch sometime sooner
Peace out
There’s this guy who is so awesome and we have so much fun when we’re together and that I definitely only have platonic feelings for, but when he talks of settling down and soon popping the question to his gf, for some reason I get really sad. I’ve thought about it and I most definitely do not like him in any way other than being a freakin awesome and hilarious friend. Maybe I’m just jealous. He does treat his gf like a freakin queen and is whipped hardcore. Ehh maybe that’s it. But it’s so annoying coz I really want to be happy and excited for him.. >.< arghh things would be so much easier if he were gay :-P
Today was a mix of extremes. My fave work buddy came back from leave and I was so happy, I even stopped myself from calling in sick just to catch up with them! And then I got this disgusting call from some sicko who tried to have phone “relations” with me. It was seriously gross, I felt so violated and a bit scared that I was specifically being targetted (as that’s what the guy insinuated). Most people laughed when I told them about it, but if they had heard that guy’s voice saying that shit to them they wouldn’t have thought it was so funny. I’m a bit ok and over it now, it still makes me shudder to think about it, but at least I’m no longer scared. And I’m still glad i went to work, if only to catch up with my strictly platonic friend who always helps make the impossible very possible :-D One more bad thing, my best friend is going camping in the bush with a bunch of idiots and I’m so worried that something will go wrong >.<
So this year has gone to a great start, rang in the new year by crying myself to sleep, almost got into a hardcore fight with a relo & ended with everyone declaring their undying love for me, all except the one I actually wanted to hear it from. Fighting with my cousin made me realised how much I love my family & how awesome they are no matter how much they do my head in. And at least we’ve all gotten our shit off our chests. Now let’s move on.
It’s a new year, I’m changing everything, watch coz you won’t recognize me at the end of it.
This is my heart at this exact moment. To scale and everything *roll eyes. Finally got what I wanted.. but not exactly how I hoped. Well here’s to the new year I guess.. *sigh
You know that person that makes you believe anything is possible? That tells you how amazing you are daily and appreciates your humour and personality quirks? Yeh well it’s not who it should be and that sucks. How’d I get stuck with someone so mean and brash and that doesn’t care, not like he does for her :-(
One thing I hate so much is when people are rude to my mum, to her face or behind her back, I don’t care. That is MY fkn job bitches, and if anyone dares to be mean to her, u can answer to me and bear my wrath coz she is too forgiving for her own good especially to those who don’t deserve it.
